We know you'd be with us if heaven wasn't so far away -- Fall 2018

I walked up to Lucy and kept my hand around her waist for support.  "Most everyone has left," I said to quietly.  This was far from over, but at least it would be moving out of the funeral home and to somewhere comfortable.

I jumped slightly when Ayden put his arm around me.  I had not realized he was right there.  I leaned into him and nodded.  "Okay... so it's just us kids?" I asked, meaning me and my two brothers.

Even though Uncle Moony was like a father to me in many ways, I left before Will, Lucy, and Linc did.  I wanted to give them their privacy.  Back at the cottage, I tried to find ways to help and keep busy... I saw that my kids were being comforted, so I went to the window and looked out at the lake behind the house that separated this cottage and that of Grandpa John's.  So many memories...

Sirius Black wrote:

Ember Potter Black wrote:I looked at Sirius, putting a hand on his arm.  "I'll let you go say goodbye," I said to him softly, kissing his cheek.

As Ember kissed my cheek, I stood up and walked towards Remus. My heart clenching the closer I got. Finally from what seemed like an eternity James had walked away and I finally made my way up to Remus. " I'm so sorry mate. I can't believe......this is it. " I said struggling on having words come out. " To know that we won't be seeing you anymore because of Boris. In the end he killed ......he..." My voice was struggling as I began to feel sick. I could still taste his blood; my best friend, my brother. Tears fell from my eyes as I put one hand on his casket. I couldn't believe I was the one to end Boris, to end Remus. I killed him....me. His best friend. I started shaking, and hyperventilating.

I had backed off so Sirius could say goodbye, but when I saw him shaking and starting to hyperventilate, I went to my husband.  I put my arms around him.  "Honey," I said to him, wishing that I could take away his pain.  There was soemthing that Sirius was not telling me about what happened -- I could see it eating away at him.  I knew he would not tell me, though... that was just Sirius.  I held him tightly, trying my best to help him.

I couldn't stop tears just wouldn't stop coming as I pulled myself into a ball as I couldn't force myself to walk. I couldn't do it. Her arms around me I tried to take strength from her but I couldn't do, sobs racking my body. Trying to contain myself I know the kids were still here I couldn't stop myself if I wanted to.

I went over to Dean's children because they looked to be having a difficult time.  I sat down with them.  "Are you three doing alright?" I asked, though, obviously, no one really was.

Parker Weasley wrote:I nodded and sighed.  "Yeah, he did," I said heavily.  How could we have buried Aunt Chloe last year and now Uncle Remus?  I could not even begin to comprehend... I sighed again.  "Would you like a cup of tea?  I know my grandma and mum were in the kitchen getting things around with some help...."

I was startled into a slight grin.  That was what Gramps always offered us when we were upset.  "How much tea do you think will be made today?" I asked him as I followed him into the kitchen.  I could at least help with things, too.

"Too much," I replied sadly.  Walking into the kitchen, I realized that Gran was gone, but others were in there.  I got us some cups and filled them with warm water and put in the tea leaves.  We each added our own little extras and went to a different room where there were less people. 

"Everything is going to feel so odd, won't it?" I asked her as we sat down.

I went through the house offering some tea and whatnot.  When it finally seemed everyone had a cup, I sat down heavily on the stairs away from everyone.  My brother and sister were gone.  I always had Remus in my life for as long as I could remember.  And I never saw him happier as he had been when he was with Chloe... and then everything changed.  I put my face in my hands and let the tears fall.

Abel Matthews wrote:

Leopold Greyback wrote:I walked around the house that was quickly filling with people, but it just seemed so empty without Gramps telling stories and Grandma trying to correct those stories.  I sighed, realizing that Dona had left me to be by myself a bit.  I ended up seeing Abel.  I walked over to him.  "How are you holding up?" I asked my cousin, having a feeling that he was doing about the same as me.  And I was miserable.

I looked up and saw Leo. I gave a small shrug, "Okay, I guess." I really had no idea how I was. I was survivng but I didn't think I was really okay. "How about you? How are you doing?" I was happy for the distraction. I never did well when I was left alone with thoughts like this, it brought back too many memories.

I gave the same noncommittal shrug as Abel had done.  "I mean, I just... I really don't know what I'm going to do," I admitted, knowing that I would not say any of this to anyone else except Charlie really.  Charlie understood; he had lycanthropy to deal with... just like I had vampirism to deal with.  Gramps helped so much when I was first bitten... and it really has not been that long ago.  Even though one of the last times I saw Gramps, he nearly lost control of Boris's desire to come after me.  That was something I would never tell anyone he did because it was not his fault.  It was Boris.  It was the beast that eventually got to Gramps... which made me think that, one day, I would lose my battle, too.

<< IDK who all knows that Leo is a vampire... but maybe he had a talk of "coming out" to his older cousin?  Sort of a bonding moment for the two of them?  Because Abel would have noticed the changes, you know? >>

Cathleen Clearwater wrote:I went over to Dean's children because they looked to be having a difficult time.  I sat down with them.  "Are you three doing alright?" I asked, though, obviously, no one really was.

I started slightly when Nana Cathie sat down with us.  I tried to give a reassuring smile.  "We'll be fine," I answered, lying through my teeth.

I let Lucy go up to Remus's casket on her own -- it would be nice for her to say her goodbyes without even me by her side.  I did this at Chloe's funeral as well.

I watned to smack Ryan for the annoying way he was talking.  I knew we were all grieving.  But still.  I gave nana Cathie a big hug.  "We're going to miss him, too," I said to her.

James Potter wrote:

Lily M. Evans Potter wrote:I left James to say goodbye to Remus. I had started helping Cathleen and Penelope with some things around the cottage. I found myself getting distracted by some of the photos, one in particular was summer of all of us together. Running around the pool, laughing and just being stupid. Tears came to my eyes as I wiped them quickly. Seeing James come in, he came over and squeezed my hand I leaned on him hoping he knew I would be there no matter what. I just couldn't believe they were both gone. A big piece of my heart with them. It would take a long time to even be okay. I wasn't sure how to even begin to fathom how to handle this. " I'm right here hon." I said quietly.

I nodded at her and pulled her into an embrace.  "Lily... how are you holding up?" I asked, realizing how selfish I was being during all of this.  Lily was super close to Remus, too.  Of course, I did not think she was as close to him as me and Sirius were, but still.  We were all family.

Hugging him, " I'm alright. " I lied, I couldn't break down and cry. I did by myself with Chloe I probably will with Remus. I felt bad for being upset. I felt like there were many people that will miss him. I had to keep busy to be okay. " How are you holding up hon?" I asked him to get the topic off of me. I mean, I miss him terribly. He helped me quite a bit. Talking to me about James and whatnot and just being the fantastic person he was. Chloe was essentially my sister and it still hurt knowing she was gone. I couldn't even fathom on how Will and Lucy feel. " How are Will and Lucy and Lincoln?" I asked

I had been pretty quiet during the whole thing.  I knew what I had Seen and knew what I had felt.  But I said not one word about it.  I could not.  how could I?  It was Granddad and Grandpa Remus after all...

I stood up and moved away from everyone.  I did not feel like talking and I did not want to have to lie to anyone.  I felt tears burning in my unseeing eyes.  Yes they were for Grandpa Remus... but also because of everything that had happened and that I had Seen happen to him since he left.  And what I Saw happen to Aunt Chloe... I just could not handle it any more.

rushing outside, I bumped into someone and quickly apologized -- I hardly ever made that type of mistake, people tended to forget I was blind -- and just ran out to the lake behind the cottage, stopping at the edge of the water.  I just needed away from everyone and every thing.  I was sick of it.  I fell to my knees and put my face in my hands.