New beginings...where to start..tbd

"You keep thinking that and I'll pretend to believe you." I knew I wasn't important, my whole family told me so. The only ones who didn't were Mother and Draco but Mother didn't say much of anything, so she didn't really count. I sighed as I looked at my brother. I knew he wanted me to believe that he thought I was important but I wasn't sure if I ever would. Every time I tried, Father was there to bring me back to reality. It was far easier for me to believe Father then to be built up and torn down each time I was home. I sighed as I looked at the books I hugged to my chest, "I don't know if I'll ever believe that Draco." I admitted softly.

I looked down for a moment.  "I know," I replied in just as soft a voice as my sister.  "But that doesnt' mean I'll stop trying to get you to believe it.  one day I will succeed."  I tried to smile at her.

I tried to smile back. "I know, and I do hope it will work someday." If anyone could convince me, it would be Draco. I took a shaky breath. "I just hate starting to believe it only to be brought back to reality by Father within a hour of being home." I felt tears start to form in my eyes and tried my best to force them back down.

I sighed.  I realized that I really hated Father for doing that to her.  What was the point?  "I wish we could just leave sometimes," I said simply.  "Maybe I could convince Mother into convincing Father to let us stay somewhere for the summer... I just have no clue where."  That could keep Father from breaking June down.

I shook my head slightly, although it was nice to think about. "We are leaving Draco, remember, Happily Ever After?" I reminded him. "But where are we going to go before then? You might be able to get away but not me." Who would want to house the disappointment? "Father would never let that happen. Besides, everyone we know, knows me as the disappointment anyway. It wouldn't change anything."

I looked over at her.  "Yeah, but since I'm the golden child, I can pretty much tell anyone who would want to care for me, to care for you as well.  And they would -- or else," I added, thinking of different people that we could use to help us in our cause.  Sadly, there really was no one.  The only person I trusted was our Potions master... and even then, he would not dare go against Father's wishes.

I raised my eyebrows slightly. "That sounds good in theory, but not so much in execution." I said. "Admit it Draco, there's no one who would go against Father. And besides, I don't want anyone else getting in trouble with him if they did house us against his wishes."

"Well, if I found someone, you will be the first to know," I said, trying to keep it upbeat rather than depressing about it.  Though, she really was right.  No one in their right mental state would help us get away from father if they knew him.

I rolled my eyes at his persistence. "I won't hold my breath." I told him with a sigh. "And besides, as long as you're there, it doesn't get terribly bad. You're there to counter him." It was just Father was a lot more persuasive than Draco but I knew if i didn't have my brother, things would be a lot worse.

I sighed, rolling my eyes at her stubbornness.  "Well, I might not be there forever, you know.  I will find someone who would want to take in a thing like you," I teased.

I put my free hand on my hip and gave a small laugh as I raised my eye brow slightly. "And what's that supposed to mean, 'a thing like me'?" I asked. I wanted to argue the first part, if he wasn't here, I had no idea how I would survive, but I wanted to try to lighten the mood.

I smirked at her, moving a step away because I was sure she would end up smacking me playfully.  "Oh, I think you know exactly what I mean," I said to her casually.  "Your a snoring, sassy, handful of a girl disguised as a shy, timid one.  that's a good disguise for outsiders... but I know the truth."

My mouth fell open in mock shock but I laughed slightly. "Hey now," I ran up to him and playfully hit him on the shoulder with my free hand. "I do not snore, although, I guess you would know what that sounds like. I can record you though, if you'd like." I sighed, still laughing, "And you're the only one who gets to see the sassy, handful of a girl I truly am. Just like I'm the only one who gets to see the real you." I raised my eye brows slightly after I winked.

I flashed her a smirk.  "Exactly... I don't need you going around telling people that I'm really kind of a softy," I informed her,my eyebrows raised slightly.  I was saying it as if it were a joke, but it was true.  I was nowhere near as snarky or rude as I had to appear to make Father happy.

I rolled my eyes a bit. "I'd never let that happen." I assured him. "We don't need Father to find out about the real us." I could only imagine what he would do if he ever found out what we really were like, especially when we're together.