New beginings...where to start..tbd

"That'd be a horrible mess we'd never be able to clean up," I agreed, shaking my head.  I was not really keen on ever finding out waht Father would do to us if he ever found out how we acted with each other.

I gave a small laugh and nodded. "And that's why we would never say anything or act like this in front of him. You know he would probably blame me for it. Not that I really care that much about getting blamed." I shrugged it off but I knew Draco would also get in trouble and that's the last thing I wanted.

I rolled my eyes.  "Please, June, he'd yell at both of us.  This may be one area where he may scold me more than you... he expects more from me than you," I said slowly.

"That's true," I agreed. "But it would be easy enough for me to convince him that it was my fault." I pointed out. "He would still scold you, but I would still get the brunt of his anger."

"Yeah, but I take responsibility for my own actions.  That's what Father would do and that is what I will do," I said.  "It's what he expects, too.  If you took the fall and he found out later that it was more me... it would be bad and you know it."

I rolled my eyes. "You don't always have to do what Father would do or what he expects, especially if it would get you in trouble." I pointed out. I knew he still would though, no one when against Father. "And we're both to blame for this, one of us is not on the hook more. I'm just saying that it's easy to get you out of trouble since Father hates to punish you."

I scoffed at her.  "Yeah?  You think that I'd go against what Father said?  June... if I could do that, you know that I'd make you do the same thing.  But there's no way," I said, though she already knew that.  She had to.  She lived in our family.

I just shook my head. We both knew what I said was ridicules. If we had been able to go against what Father said, we would not be having this conversation or being so worried about what would happen to us if he ever saw us being ourselves. I sighed. "I know." I admitted softly, "it's just nice to think about sometimes."

I put my free hadn on her shoulder.  "I know," I said to her, hating having ruined what sh ewas trying to do.

I gave him a small smile. "At least we're still getting away after graduation. Happily ever after. And we have our game nights until then." I reminded.

I nudged her playfully.  "Yeah, that is very true," I said, grinning slightly.  "There's always one nice thing to look forward to."

I forced a smile at him and gave a nod. "Yup." I was just worried that this would be take away some how. It would make us happy and the disappointment didn't deserve to be happy, even if the prefect one did.

I sighed.  "Now don't get all downtrodden on me, missy," I said to my sister as playfully as I could.

A managed a half smile for my brother before it fell. "I just have this horrible feeling that it will be taken away, no matter how much we want it, because it will make us happy." I began. I sighed and turned to him. "I don't deserve it, you might, but the Disappointment doesn't."

I sighed and shook my head.  "You deserve it as much as me because, without you, I would just be a drone," I said to her.  "I'd end up like a mini version of Father... and we don't want that."