Scared to death -- Winter 2002

I leaned into my big brother when Lily started speaking.  I nodded at her.  "Bill was already tested," I said, "but no one else has yet.  And, please, just do anything to help her."  That was all the permission she needed.  I felt Remus squeeze my shoulders tighter to him when I started to get choked up again.  I looked past Lily and at George when he told me that I should get some air.  I bit my lip slightly, not wanting to leave my baby girl, but thinking that it might be a good idea.  "If anything changes, George... come get me."

I stopped walking and looked at Charlie.  "I wouldn't be anywhere else," I assured him.  "Are you okay?  I think you're pulling a Charlie with all of this and that's not good..."

I nodded at Desi and ushered her and Lupin out of the room.  "I've got her," I assured my sister-in-law.  There was no reason to be so concerned.  I did have children of my own.  I could handle ti.

I looked at George and nodded with a smile.  I was grateful that he would look after my niece as I knew that Des would not leave her side if no adult was in there that she trusted.  I ushered Desi through the door and looked at Lily.  "I know that there's a certain level of patient-healer relationship... but whatever you find out with quinn, please... let me know as soon as you are able to.  I'll need to be there for Des -- I'm all the family she's got," I whispered to her.  I hoped Lily knew what I meant.  Charlie had the entire Weasley clan... Desi had just me.  Of course there was Will, Chloe, and Lucy, too, but I was her brother.

I smiled as I gave Remus a nod. I know how it felt to be the only one for you. We had lost parents and such. I had lost my family a while ago, until recently it had become literal. For James and I we had lost the important men in our lives. Of course, Ryan teaching how to treat a woman...and my father on how to be treated. Nothing less than perfect is what he told me. Smiling briefly as I continued to Remus. " I'll do what I can....I promise you." I told him as I went to my files as I would have to find out who in the staff is a match for little Quinn.

I nodded at Lily, glad that she was the one on the case.  I would trust no one else but Chloe or Lily with this.  I squeezed my sister's shoulder and helped usher her out of the room.  She needed to eat and de-stress as much as possible.  We walked out behind Lily, leaving George and Tori in the room with Quinn.  I turned back slightly and gave him a smile of thanks as we left the room.  I looked at my little sister.  "Alright, Des... we need to get some food in you," I said to her softly.  I glanced around the waiting room and saw that Charlie was gone.  I had a feeling she would want to wait until he returned before heading down to get food -- just in case anything changed.

I paced in the waiting room.  I saw Healer Potter -- Lily -- walking out of the room with my niece.  I walked up to her and I wanted to know how long it would be to get results to see who can help make Quinn better.  "Hey... how long til we know?" I asked her, keeping pace with her easily.  I did nto want to bombard her, but still.

Charlie and I walked back to the waiting room with water for everyone.  I saw that Desi was out of the room and walked over to her.  "Hey, why don't you go take a break?  Charlie's back... if anything changes," I suggested, looking up at Professor Lupin, realizing that had been his idea in the first place.

I looked beside me, " Bill I presume?" I asked him as I knew most of the Weasley clan was here in the hospital and Desdemona just told me Bill was tested. " It should be about half an hour to find your results Mr. Weasley." I told him as we got to my desk. " I have opened up all of the cases that I know of that may be able to help Quinn as well as opened it to my staff to have everyone that can be tested. I will let everyone know as soon as results come in. You have my word." I told him writing down names for Quinn, looking for perspective matches. I wasn't just going to sit here for half an hour to do nothing but wait.

I nodded and kept pace with her.  "I'm not sure how long you've been dealing with Quinn and everything... but you do know that Charlie had to ask us to help him, right?" I said, feeling slightly uncomfortable.  "I mean... we don't know who the biological father is... we all stepped up to the plate and thought it best to never really find out.  But this... well, the biological father should be able to help her now.  This won't change anything between us brothers, but I just wanted you to know... it's a little delicate in addition to what is going on."  I ran a hand through my hair, not entirely sure if I explained myself clearly enough.

I gave Des a kiss on the cheek before Remus took her down to get some food.  I nearly collapsed into a chair in the waiting room, I was exhausted and worried and overwhelmed.  How could this be happening to a little girl?  She was barely two!  I could not believe it.  I was her father... I was supposed to be able to protect her from having to be in a hospital -- from everything.  And I could not.

I sat down next to my son and put my arm around him.  I wanted to force him to rest, but knew that I could no longer do that.  "Why don't we try to talk about something positive, hmm?" I said to the group that had congregated in the waiting room.  "As of right now, Quinn is okay and stable... so let's have positive thoughts and that will help everyone," I instructed.

I looked over at Mum, grateful for her being there with us.  I nodded slightly.  "Yea," I said, my voice showing my exhaustion and worry.  "Just... don't get offended if I don't join in..." I glanced back towards my daughter's room, glad to see George and one of the twins still in there with her, though she was sleeping.

I had Ren still in my lap as she was squirming to go in and see Quinn. " Sweetie I think she's asleep.." I told my daughter in hopes that she may just end up waiting to see her cousin. I looked around and noticed Des gone and uncle Remus gone too. It was about time they got something into their systems. I highly doubt Aunt Lily wanted to have to deal with not eating and passing out.

I smiled slightly when I saw how antsy all the kids were getting.  "How about we see about getting the kids elsewhere, hmm?  They're all getting tired and squirmy?" I suggested, wondering who we could use to watch them.  I did not want to leave my son and so I would have to call upon other grandparents.  "I bet Cathie, Ember, Tobi, or any grandparent that I'm missing wouldn't mind to watch them while we have some adult time here?" I said, looking at the children of the names that I spoke of.