You're falling out of reach -- Spring/Summer 2000

I was at St. Mungo's with Mum and Dad.  They were both still unconscious from what happened.  I was so worried about them.  I refused to think that they would not wake up.  With what happened, the Healers had no idea their mental state when they woke up would be.  I knew Ayden was worried about me and my stress levels with the baby, but if I was no there, I would be ten times worse.  We were all taking shifts waiting for them to wake up.  Des was coming in next.  I shifted, extremely uncomfortable in the chair.  When I stood up, I saw movement coming from Daddy's bed.  I moved closer and took hold of his hand.  "Daddy?" I spoke softly.

I felt someone holding my hand and I opened my eyes.  I blinked and stared at the blonde sitting next to me.  My mind seemed foggy and I had no idea where I was or why I was there.  I pulled my hand away and sat up a little bit, wincing at the pain it caused.  Moving made the room start spinning, too.  I looked around the room and guessed that I was in a hospital.  There was another blonde laying in the bed next to me hooked up to monitors like myself.  My gaze returned to the girl next to me.  "Where am I?" I asked her, the sound of a hoarse voice startling me slightly.  That was what I sounded like?  I would have preferred a more smooth, sexy voice.  I was slightly disappointed.

I was practically holding my breath without realizing I was doing it.  When Dad spoke, I let it out.  The Healers said he would probably be confused when he woke.  "You're at St. Mungo's.  How are you feeling?" I asked, reaching for his hand again and trying not to be hurt when he pulled his away.

What on earth was she doing?  I new I was older -- I could remember that... I just could not remember my specific age.  She looked like a teenager.  And I could tell she was pregnant.  Merlin... I hoped it was not mine.  I could not be a father.  It just was not me... at least I did not think so.  "Just peachy," I said sarcastically.  I was in a bloody hospita.  I hated St. Mungo's from the feeling I got when she spoke the name.

I sat back and sighed.  I really did not expect him to be so grumpy when he woke.  I stayed quiet as I tried to place the look he kept giving me.  He kept looking over at Mum and then at me.  "What's wrong?" I asked Daddy.  I really hoped that everything was okay.  Did I need to call a healer in sooner than I wanted to.  Obviously I would tell them he was awake... but I wanted a little time with him at first.

I ran a hand through my hair.  "I can see why you are here for her... you look just like her.  But why are you bothering me, too?" I questioned.  I did not necessarily want to be cruel... but she was kind of freaking me out.  I really did not enjoy the looks she was giving me.

I was bothering him?  "Her?  That's Mum.  Don't talk about her like that," I snapped.  I knew I needed to be patient... he was confused and injured.  We needed to be patient with him.  What was he doing?  He was not ating like Dad at all.

Apparently I made her angry.  "I can tell she's your mother.  I didn't realize I was talking about her - your Mum - any particular way."  I sighed and shook my head.  "Instead of arguing, could you make yourself useful and go get a healer?  I'd like to know when I can get out of here."  In reality, I just wanted the girl to leave me alone.  She was starting to creep me out.  I wanted to change rooms at the very least.

Things were starting to click in my head.  This was not the way my dad would talk about the love of his life.  "A few questions... do you know who you are?  Or me?" I asked him.  I tried to keep the tears from my eyes.  I could already tell what his answer was going to be to at least one of the questions.

"My name is Remus," I said as if she were crazy.  "I have no idea who you are besides apparently the daughter to that woman in the next bed."  Now I really wished she would go get a healer.  I watched as she stood up and left.  I could see her trying to hide tears.  She asked the question, I Just gave her an answer... which was the truth.

He knew who he was, but not me or mum?  I grabbed a healer and took them to the room.  I waited outside while the healer went in to talk to my daddy.  I waited and finally the healer came back out to talk to me.  "So how is he?" I questioned.  I really wanted to know how bad everything was. 

The healer sighed and shook her head.  "He knows his name... but other things are foggy.  Things will probably come back to him.  It will just take time, Lucy," she told me gently.  "I am going to heed his request to be moved to a new room.  I think it'd be good for him.  He remembers a few names -- Jonathan, James, Sirius, and Fenrir."

I nodded and of course Daddy would remember them.  "Jonathan was his dad.  James and Sirius are his best friends.  Fenrir... well, he bit him," I said.  Then I gasped, my hand over my mouth, eyes wide.  "Does he know what he is?" I asked in a whisper.

I was getting extremely antsy.  I stood up and heard the two in the hall talking.  I had no idea James and Sirius were my friends, the names just floated around in my head.  I knew Fenrir; I wanted to talk to him... exact some revenge... thank him for making me what I am today.  I knew Jonathan is my father.  I opened the door and leaned against the doorframe.  "Why do you say Jonathan was my father?  What happened to my dad?" I asked, feeling like someone had a grip on my heart.  I wanted to know what happened.  To admit to only him that I was scared.  I could not remember anything or anyone... i needed my dad.

I looked at my dad.  He didn't know that Grandpa John was gone?  I looked at the healer for some help.  I was grateful that she smiled at my dad.  She walked over to him and put a hand on his arm.  I could not hear what she said, but whatever it was, she took him to a new room.  I waited and when she returned, she explained.  "I got him to calm down.  I think he wants answers, but wants them from James or Sirius.  If he remembers them, he think sit will help," she said to me.

I nodded.  "I'll get a hold of one of them," I told her.  The healer nodded and started to move things around to Dad's room... away from Mum.  I sent word to James and Uncle Sirius... I told them to meet me in the lobby.  I had no idea what to do about Daddy.

I had gotten word from lucy that Remus had woken up... but there were issues.  She really did not get into what was wrong and she did not really say anything was wrong, but I could just feel it.  I went to St. Mungo's as soon as I was able to and saw poor Lucy pacing in the lobby.  I walked up to her and put my hands on her shoulders so she would look at me.  "Hey, what's going on?" I questioned.  This was not good for her to be this worried.

I ran up to my 'uncle' and hugged him.  I could nto believe that this was going on.  I pulled back with tears in my eyes.  "Daddy woke up... but he doens't remember anything.  He didn't even recognize Mum!" I said, starting to cry.  I hated how emotional I was, but part of it had to be the pregnancy let alone what was going on.