I was her number one. She told me so. And she still means the world to me..just so you know. Just be careful when you hold my girl. -- December 27th.

I went to my parents house for a little visit. I wanted James' to know where I was. So, I left him a note to join me at my parents house when he got home. I wanted to tell them more about our engagement. What we had planned so far and whatnot. I was so excited. I couldn't wait to be Mrs. Lily Potter. I smiled at the thought as I wrapped my robe around me. It was a brisk december evening, I looked around the neighbourhood and smiled. It had been a little while since I was here last. It felt like ages ago. I wanted to sit with my mum and discuss more. Petunia was apparently coming too, which wasn't great. I could tell she was going to through a fit or something when I got there. She didn't like that it seemed I got more attention.

I've told James it breaks my heart to know that my own sister can't stand me now because of me becoming a witch and getting accepted to Hogwarts. It was ridiculous. She made it seem like I wouldn't ever talk to her again. It was just to much. I got along with my parents and even if I didn't I felt the need to update people I was related to on what I was up too.

So, I had gotten to my old house and smiled up to it. I knocked once and I walked in slowly. " Hello?" I asked loudly as I stepped into the house and shook off the snow. It looked the exact same. My mother came around the corner. She smiled, as I said. " Hi Mum. I just thought I'd come for a visit. James is at work. He'll probably be coming a little afterward if at all. " I told her as I took off my robe to hang it up.

I looked up to see my youngest daughter, I smiled " Hi sweetheart. I know you're here about the Wedding...You have got to tell me what you and James have planned so far. " I gushed. " Oh, and your sister will be coming over with her Fiancee Vernon. " I told her. Lily and Petunia have not gotten along at all ever since Lily was accepted to Hogwarts. It saddens me everyday still, I can't imagine that my two little girls can't get along with one another. Petunia would not let Lily ever try to talk to her. She would constantly put Lily down. It broke my heart that she is the only one trying to still have a relationship with her sister.

She said how James would maybe be joining us. For her and my own sake I wished she was right. " I hope he shows up sweetie." I gave her a hug. " Your Dad's downstairs working on the cabinets that he doesn't need help on. He's trying to finish it before Dursley comes over. " I told her with a smirk. " Of course Vernon is a big guy with a Drilling company now...so Petunia is trying to convince your dad to let him help around the house. Lily gave me a look of She and James can help. " Sweetie...you know how your sister is...." I didn't want to go into deep discussion over this. It just seemed overdone. " So, how about we gush about that beautiful May wedding?" I asked her as I took her hand and we rushed into the kitchen were we sat down and I pulled out all of my wedding Magazines. I loved this day coming. I love helping my babies with their weddings. Even though I would like Petunia to do better. Would I ever tell her that. No way....

I grinned as my mum pulled me into the kitchen. " Really Mum...Petunia is coming.....couldn't you and Dad have waited until I go before she comes here...I didn't come here to argue. " I informed her. Petunia is coming with Dursley and I'm here without James....Please hurry babe....please. I pleaded within my thoughts to hopefully have them answered before Petunia and her Fiancee got here. I looked at the time. " What time are they supposed to be showing up?" I asked. " I mean...I want to limit the amount of time here if I can help it...." I told her honestly. It killed my mother to know we couldn't stand each other now. " I'm not going to be the only one trying..."

I sighed. " Yes, I know you don't want to be the only one trying sweetheart. That's why I'm hoping James shows up. We can all have a dinner. I don't expect you to turn over backwards to make her happy. I just thought it would be good for everyone to be together at leaast once again. To talk about both of your weddings that are coming up. " I explained. Stretching, I looked over to the clock. " She'll be here in about an hour. "

I smirked, " Okay well I won't stay for dinner then. " I told her. She gave me a look, " I'm sorry but you guys invited them over so it's not fair if I were to ruin the visit by being here. I don't really want to get into a fight." I explained, " If I stay here...I''ll get called freak....and I don't really want to deal with that... " I huffed. I wasn't ready to go to battle with my older sister all because I got accepted into Hogwarts and she didn't.

Mother invited Vernon and I over for dinner. I sure hoped my freak of a sister wouldn't be there, but I have no idea if she was invited or not. Vernon promised that we would leave right when he got home from work and I was happy when I saw his car pull into the driveway. I watched as my big bear of a man stepped out of it. I don't know what attracted me to him, possibly the way that he holds himself in our community. Perhaps the way that he has liked me from the moment we met and never stopped trying to get me for himself. Maybe it was the way that his lips might mine when we just laid together in bed. "Welcome home my dear." I said as Vernon walked in. He told me how he made some big sales today and would take me out for a nice dinner tomorrow to celebrate our engagement. "Oh how lovely Vernon. We should get going." I knew he wanted to stay home and rest for a bit, I could tell by the way he held himself now from a long day at work, but he knew he made me a promise and he didn't intend to break it. I knew we would be early getting to mother's for dinner, but I think it'll be okay, seeing as we'll talk about the wedding while Vernon talks with father.

I had hoped with everything in me that James would show up so I had a little back up which then Petunia and the pig of a fiance of hers would back off of me a little bit. I felt helpless when dealing with Petunia and her husband. they just seemed to be perfect for each other which wasn't a good thing I guess. They are going to end up having a child that hates everything that is different to them. Which was a bad thing, to immediately hate everything different from them. Which I hadn't really not expected them to do to their child. Really was a bad thing. I shook my head as I flipped through the magazine. " This is going to end up bad if James doesn't get here." I informed my mother who just kind of nodded slowly.

I nodded my head slowly. " Lily dear, it won't be that bad..." I told her, I heard her father downstairs making some noise. " Well, he seems to be about done. " I said with a smile knowing he'd be happy he got what he needed to get done before Vernon got here. Hopefully, James will get here soon.

Vernon drove to mother and father's place. I began to wonder what they might be doing right now, I did it often. Dad usually was working on something new, and mom usually was fixing up the house. I guess I get a bit of my neat-ness from her. I looked over at Vernon as he drove, he was going on and on about the sales he made today. Did I really want to be with a man that only talked about his work and didn't seem to care how my day was? Yes. I know that is my answer because I know he cares about me. I smiled and made it seem like I was paying attention to him.

I saw a car in my parents driveway, one I have never seen before. I really hoped it wasn't Lilly's, I didn't want her stomping on my wedding plans. Vernon pulled into the driveway and we both got out. I looked at him across the hood as he locked it by key. He was such a burly man. So warm in the winter. I knew I loved him. I went around the hood. I wanted to hold his hand, but he believes that to be to much, says that anyone could see and start talking. I let him have his space about it then, but I stayed close to him. I knocked on the door. I knew that I could just enter it, but I felt something like a pull keeping me from opening it. Some kind of pull, like I was welcome. But that would be impossible, my parents want me here and I want to be here.

I rolled my eyes, " I should go get my boxing gloves?" I asked my mother sarcastically who rolled her eyes at me. " Oh Lily...it'll be fine...." she told me. I highly doubted it would work though. I put on my fake smile and tried my best to act normal. My mother let Petunia and her Pig fiance in. I nodded to them as the glaring began instantly. This is going to be a lonnnngggg night. I need James here now! my mind screamed. I continued flipping through the magazine I was looking through. " Hello Vernon..Petunia." I said being civil.

I gave mother a hug when she answered the door and Vernon shook her hand, he wasn't much for hugs. I went around the door to head into the dining room when I saw her. That freak was here and she was trying to be polite with me, how dare she?!. Well, two could play at that game, for now. Giving my best sneer, "Well, hello there dear sister, joining us for the festivities?" I walked into the dining room and saw all the bridal magazines spread out around the table. I knew she was getting married too, but how could she come here, on the day that mother invited me over, and look at all the magazines I was to look at?. I sat down across the table from her and stared for a while, Vernon was off to find something else to do, he wouldn't care for these things. Lilly looks like she is getting thin, stress for the wedding I am sure. A string tugs at my heart for her, I can feel it. I just want to hold her close and help her out. No!, my mind yells at me. She made the choice to be some kind of freak of nature and I wouldn't stand for that. Mother was in the kitchen making dinner, I could smell in cooking. "You must think you're something special." I whispered, directing it at my sister.

Well she has been here for like six seconds....." Nope, mum said to come on over..." I told her. I was not ready to fight nor did I want to but she could keep in mind I will fight if needed. I tried to keep my temper down knowing it wasn't the best thing. She looked at me weird. " So when are you guys planning your wedding ?" I asked. I am trying for my parents. She had invited us here on purpose to talk about our weddings. Did I want her at my wedding, of course I did and yet that nagging feeling. I didn't really want her there to insult the family I was being welcomed into. I shook my head as I looked back to the magazine. " So Vernon works for a Drilling company?" I asked I knew she would have no problem talking about herself and the so called love of her life. I pulled my hair to one shoulder and wrapped it in an elastic. Looking to her waiting for a response as our mother walked back into the room with a smile. " I figured we could have a ladies visit. " she said to us both I gave a short smile. I knew she had wanted to talk with both of us. I didn't want to tell Petunia the day of our wedding because then she would find one way to cause our parents a dilemma on which wedding they would go to. Or at least I didn't put it past her. I looked to my mother then to my sister back to my mother.

" So, what style dress were you thinking Petunia?" I asked her with a smile. Fake as it may be, I am still having a visit.

She wants to be sweet I see. I really don't want to blow up in front of our parents, although my respect for them has dwindled down because of Lilly. "Well, we haven't really set a date yet, I was thinking last spring, but I'm not sure." I was still even unsure if I wanted Lilly there.

When we were way young, we used to talk about getting married, how we would find the hottest guy in school, and we would both be maids-of-honour, and that our kids would be our god-kids, but then it all changed. She got accepted to Hogwarts and I claimed her as a freak. I went to high school alone, where I met Vernon. He wasn't the hottest guy in the bunch, but I connected with him most. I was sad to see Lilly go, but I hated her for what she was becoming, she wasn't normal anymore.

"Yes. Actually, Vernon made some very good sales today." I sometimes love boasting about Vernon's job, especially when he has had a good day, but sometimes it does get tiresome talking about it.

I looked at mother as she came in. I was still unsure if I wanted to break out in a fight with Lilly. It seemed that mother was trying so hard to get us all back together. How does she expect things to go back to the way it was, though? I can barely look at Lilly without wanting to address her as 'freak'.

My dress? Hmm, I remember when Lilly and I used to play dress-up. I have to stop living in my past though and moving onto a future that I'll have with Vernon. "Well, very proper, and sliming for the body." I didn't like anything bulky. It looked dirty and it made me look big. I wanted everyone to see my perfect thin body, not think that I was something bigger.

I smiled, " Well, that's good he made some sales....so, it's a commission thing?" I was trying to make small talk. I knew I was doing this more for my mother then for me or Petunia. She was trying hard to get things back to somewhat normal. I was only a freak because she didn't get accepted into Hogwarts and I did. I couldn't help that I had magic and she didn't have it. Not something I was in charge of nor did I care that she has been whining about it ever since I started going. I was a freak because i it is something she is not used to. I shook my head, " Yeah, I've seen way to many brides in that paper ruffle style it just looks odd on most women that wear it. " I agreed a little bit. I bit my lip thinking this could go a lot easier. I stifled a giggle when I heard my dad say how nothing was broken and how he didn't need Vernon's help. I continued to look at the magazines. Trying my best to keep my calm.

"Yes, I guess you could put it that way." I didn't want to talk about Vernon. He is so embarrassing when I bring him here. I love him, and I know my parents only tolerate him for my sake. They just don't understand him like I do. Although I sometimes don't either.

I showed Lilly a dress. "I think this would look perfect on you." It would be tight to her body and it has a really long train, which I know she has always dreamt about having. As I looked at her looking it over, I couldn't help thinking how much easier this would be if we stayed close, if I didn't whine about not being something like her. Not that I'd ever admit it, but I was jealous of her for being different. And I realize my jealousy turned into rage and I don't know how to change it back. I don't think we could ever go back.

I sighed as I could hear Vernon bugging father about some work he must've been doing. He can be a pain when it comes to things. Father is a smart man, so is Vernon, but father has been around more and knows how to fix things better than Vernon, not that I'd ever let him know that.