I didn't come here for advie, I came here to say goodbye -- Late Summer 2001 (DONE)

I was in tears.  Really, I had no choice but to go with them.  It was only for a little while... but how could I not see my little angel?  There was no way... but alas, here I was.  I was walking up to the gate and I knew that it was the place I had been injured.  I hoped they were home; I had not told them I was coming.  My parents had even gotten me papers if I did not want to be with Dean anymore as well... divorce and custody papers.  Why did they think they could control my life again?  Being fourteen in my head and yet of age in reality did not help.  It made me believe I had no choice.  I got to the front door and knocked.

Just having put Sedona down for a nap, I was on my way to the kitchen for lunch.  I checked hte time.  The sitter -- or rather, my ister -- was not supposed to pick Dona up until a couple hours from now for when I went in to work.  I walked to the foyer when I heard the door and saw Addison there.  That really surprised me.  I smiled as I opened hte door.  "What's wrong?" I asked when I saw the loo on her face.  My stomach dropped because I had a bad feeling I knew what this was about.

I hated that my being here made Dean look so hearbroken.  I tried to smile but knew it did not work very well.  Hemoved out of hte way so  could come in.  I could not believe what was going on.  "It's just... everything coming to a head after a little while," I answered, pacing in his living room.  I knew he was going to try to help, but there was nothing to do.

I sat on the arm of the couch and crossed my arms  "they want you to go with them."  It was not a question.  "And you're going."  That was not a question either.  I just could not believe Blake.  He hated me for some unknown reason... and I could not believe Mona was letting him do this.

I knew he was not asking, but I nodded anyways.  "Oh, Dean... please try to understand from my perspective," I pleaded.  I had no idea why it was so important for me to convince him.  "I just want to try to remember and it hasn't worked... I love Sedona.  I will make that work... I'm not abandoning her," I said, pacing.  I Hated how Dean was lookin gat me.  He had no idea.  It was not like he was mad or angry looking, he just looked so disappointed.  I hated how I had done that.

I could not believe this.  "Addie, I have tried to understand.  Why do you think I've given you space?  But I am not going to stop fighting for you," I told her quietly.  I stood up and put my hands on her shoulders.  "How are you going to remember who you are if you run away from the reality?"  I hatedh ow I had to be so blunt to her.  But Aunt Chloe had to give it to Uncle Remus straight up and they had gotten into a few spats, but look at them now.  He may have changed, but he was still with her an they could not be more in love than they were now.  They made it through... now I wanted me and ADdison to do the same thing.  We were meant to be together.

I looked into his light eyes and I felt like I could really love him one day.  "Dean... I didn't come here for any advice, I came to say goodbye," I told him softly.  I just wanted to hold my little girl.  I moved away from him and easily found Sedona's room despite not having stepped foot in here.  She was sleeping, so I was not goign to wake her.  I felt tears about to spill out of my eyes.  Iput my hand on her head and whispered, "I love you so much... I am so sorry."  I needed to be able to see her.  How could my parents do this to me?  Did they not understand what they were doing?  I sighed and figured that they knew exactly what they were doing.  I could see that hey would want me to divorce Dean and fight for custody.  Dad hated Dean and nI had no clue as to why.  I went back to the living room.  "Goodbye Dean... this is just for now," I said to him.

I was not going to let her leave without a last ditch effort to get her back.  I took hold of her hand and puled her to at least look at me.  With my hands on her shoulders, I said quietly, "Addison Blair, I love you.  And I refuse to stop fighting for you."  Even though she protested, I pulled her gently towards me and I pressed my lips to hers.  At first she resisted and then something changed.  I could feel something change in her stance and everything.

When his lips met ine, I saw flashes of everything and then I had all my memories back.  I pulled back and smiled at my husband.  "I love you," I said almost breathlessly.  I siled again at Dean and then it faultered.  "Dean... I think I need to go kill my parents.  They were trying to take me and Dona away from you," I said, getting extremely pissed off.  I wanted to stay with Dean since I finally remembered who he was... but my parents deserved a piece of my mind.  I was utterly furious at them!

I laughed through some tears and pulled her into a hug.  "Can we just be together and yell at your parents later?" I asked her, putting my hands on either side of her cheeks and kissing her again.  I was so happy to have her back.  She was so beautiful right now.  I saw that light back in her eyes... I missed it so much, that light.

I smiled and nodded.  It really did not matter if I wanted to yell at -- or kill -- my parents.  I just wanted my husband and daughter.  I knew Sedona was sleeping so I could not and would not wake her.  We fell onto the couch, holding and kissing each other.  It was as if we have not seen each other in years.  I guess even though we had seen each other, we were practically strangers for a little while there.  We stayed on the couch for another hour or so until we heard Sedona stir in her bedroom.  We got fully dressed and I could not wait to hold my baby and sit down to a family dinner.  I could only imagine what my daughter had gone through with all of this.  I smiled at my husband and said, "I'll get Dona and you can start dinner?" I figured he could easily make something -- he had been without me for a little while now.

That seemed fair to me.  She had not really seen Sedona for the entire summer.  I gave her another kiss and replied, "Sounds good, babe.  Go see your daughter."  I walked into the kitchen while she went to Sedona's room.  It was an awesome feeling to have my family back.  I was truly happy again.