Telling Daddy -- Spring 1997

I stood at the edge of the bed looking at my friend. Who looked like he wasn't there fully. I just wanted to make Greyback pay for this. I wouldn't care how but I would do it.

I took a deep breath as I looked at Remus laying in the bed, he looked so pale. I needed him to be okay. Absolutely needed him. I walked over to the other side that Lucy was on. I took Remus' hand and I squeezed it. " Hi honey..." I said with a smile. Hoping maybe getting a response even though it was said he wouldn;t be up. Iam not leaving his side again. " I'm sorry I left.." I told him quietly as I held his hand close to my face and gave the top of it a kiss. I left and he had to go into surgery I was not leaving until he wakes up.

I heard them all talking and there, I just couldn't get my body to respond.  I wanted to assure them that I was fine... that this wasn't as big of a deal.  I was even asking Boris for some strength so I could reassure them in some way, shape, or form.  I wanted to apologize for Chloe... she didn't need to apologize to me!  What came out of my mouth wasn't anything that was close to words, but a groan did escape my lips.

I looked over to my father as he made a noise. " Anyone else hear?" I looked around the room Hoping someone heard. Just didn't appear I was crazy.

"I heard," I said, my eyes going from the monitors to Remus's pale face. I couldn't believe it if he woke up. I was probably going to yell at hm if he did. As much as I wanted to hear a smart retort back, he should not be using his strength to try to talk to us. He should be resting.

I felt like it took every little bit of strength I could to breath in... and breath out.  But I needed more than that.  I needed to be able to talk to them.  C'mon, Boris... help me out, I thought, hoping that I would feel the normal warmth run through my veins whenever I called upon him.  Finally I felt it.  It gave me enough strength to squeeze both of my hands.  I knew my girls were each holding one.  I had heard Will, but I couldn't tell where he was standing.

I smiled happily as I felt a light squeeze on my hand. I felt happy tears rolling down my cheeks, " Hi baby." I said, " Take it easy....we're all here." I told him as fresh tears were rolling down my cheeks. It was a mixture of smiling and crying. I couldn't believe this, he was fighting really hard.

I couldn't believe that I jus tfelt Daddy squeeze my hand.  I rested my forehead against it and let the relief wash over me that he was really the strongest man I knew.  I knew he was fighting for us.  A few tears fell from my eyesand I let out a deep breath that I hadn't realized I was holding since Will said he heard something.  I felt Ayden's hand on my shoulder and I knew everything would turn out okay.

"No use crying..." I managed to say through a grimace.  I didn't realize talkign would hurt.  I kept my eyes shut and tried to moisten my lips... my entire mouth was extremely dry.  I wondered when the pain meds wore off... if I was already hurting now, what would it be like then?

I gave a short laugh, " glad you're here baby.." I said happily as a huge wave of relief came over me. I know he is here. " Take it easy.." I said to him, I wanted hi mto be safe.

I knew I had probably scared them all.  Hell, I scared me even.  I knew that I wouldn't be able to make coherent sentences through my pain and through the fog that was still going on in my head.  "Water," I suggested.  I hoped that I woudl be able to drink some... but the pain and fog did lighten a little bit when I heard my baby laugh.  That was all I needed... was to know that Chloe was alright.  She didn't need to worry so much.

I let go of his hand to get his cup of water mixed with ice. " You can't really swallow completely yet baby..." I took out an ice cube and rubbed it along his lips. Then gave him the straw to take a sip. " Slowly.." I said, it almost felt like we were the only ones in the room. I went into my motherly self. I looked over to our children who looked as happy as I did. I smiled to them, looking to everyone in the room. " You have everyone here.."

I did th ebest I could... which was only one small sip.  It wasn't nearly enough for me, but it would have to do.  I had figured everyone was there.  I almost didn't want to open my eyes; I didn't want to see their worry and concern.  I was fine... at least I would be fine.  I just had to be dramatic, I guess.  "I figured," I said, smiling slightly but resisting the urge to chuckle at the fact that I wondered how they all did look being crammed in a room like sardines.

I rolled my eyes.  He was being so nice about us all being there for him.  But I was really relieved to hear his voice.  He looked horrible, but he was alive.  All he needed was to rest and let others help him... which I knew was a big issue for any of us guys to do.  We liked doing things on our own.

I was so relieved that he was okay for now!  I was still really worried... I wanted to get all of the details out of Sirius, but that could wait.  I rested my head against my husband's shoulder, realizing how tiring all this stress made me.  I didn't think any of us would be leaving soon, though, no matter how tired we got.  Someone was going to be staying with Remus at all times.