Wanting Answers -- Winter Break 1993

I stared a Peter and shook my head.  "No," I said to him simply.  "You don't need to know everything.  I am allowed to have my own life, you know."

I could nto believe the insubordination from Evan.  He was always my good little soldier.  Was this because of Remus?  No... Moony was always good.  I thought it might be because of Sirius's escape?  I was not entirely sure.  I sighed and sat down.  "Evan, I'm sorry," I said to him.  I was not going to lose Evan because of me being pushy and wanting complete control.  This was a chance I had been willing to take for him to have a somewhat normal life.  I should have taken him to Durmstrang, though... somewhere other than Hogwarts.   But it was easier this way; I was the Weasley's rat, I needed Evan close by.

My eyes tightened slightly as I looked at him, trying to gauge whether or not he was being truthful.  I mean, this was Peter after all.  he was hardly ever truthful to anyone.  But he was all I had.  I was not entirely sure if I trusted Professor Lupin yet.  However, Peter mainly had a hard time with Sirius and James.  He seemed okay with Professor Lupin... but he was wary of him because Professor Lupin was so close to teh other two.

I sighed.  I had to give Peter the benefit of the doubt because he was my only family.  I mena, at school there was Harry, but I never talked to him.  "It's fine," I said to him.  "I know you're worried.  I wont' say anything."

I was grateful that Evan at least answered me.  "I know you won't... I just can't help but worry.  It's in my nature to do so," I explained to him.  I hoped that he would at least attempt to understand why I was so worried about everything.

I shrugged.  "I know," I said to him simply.  I was not going to aruge that fact; Peter was always worrying.  Perhaps if one did not lie or hide secrets as big as where I truly came from, then perhaps he would nto woryr.

Evan was behaving so oddly.  I was worried.  What did Moony say to this boy?  I did nto want to lose control of him.  "Have you made any mates?" I questioned, chanign the subject a bit.

I shrugged.  "I've managed to make Malfoy upset with me and Jetty and I have come to terms," I said to Peter. "Professor Lupin has a younger brother with whom I'm forced to work and tolerate."

I raised my eyebrows at Evan.  "Oh?" I said quietly.  "What did you do to upset Malfoy?"  I was not entirely sure if that was a wise idea for Evan to do.  I was rather concerned that he and Jetty have come to terms, but maybe that would end up being a good thing.  Perhaps it could mean seeing both of them a little bit more... and a lot easier.

I shrugged.  "Nothing, it was just a misunderstanding really," I said to Peter.  "I just didn't back down... so now we can't really tolerate each other."

I sighed.  "Malfoy is someone you want to get along with," I pointed out to Evan.  "He has influence... his whole family does.  So please, try not to make him your enemy."

I refused to roll my eyes at Peter.  "I will make friends with whomever I please," I said to him flatly.  "I'm not goign to be mates with someone just because you want me to be."