It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah -- February 2017

I was smashing down firewhiskey and anything else that I could get my hands on.  Lyla chose that prick over me?  The hell with that.  I was not going to be okay with that.  She was mine... I knew where she would be at an hour such as this.  She always thought she was sneaky... I knew she would be meeting him by sneaking out of the grounds.  I would get to her before she could leave.  I would make her realize that she belonged to me and not to anyone else.  I walked confidently and calmly towards where the passageway she would use to get out of the grounds.  I saw her beautiful red hair and I grabbed her arm.  "Lyla, we need to talk," I said darkly.  Talking was not what I wanted... but I would get that later.

I had just been ready to get out onto the grounds to go through the Whomping Willow passageway sicne I knew how to keep it from killing me to go and sneak off campus to see Xander when I felt someone grab onto my arm so tightly that I thought that it was Professor Snape.  I saw that it was Ian... but I could tell that he was extremely drunk.  I was a little worried about that crazy look in his eyes.  "Ian, what are you doing?" I asked, whispering hoping that things would not be get out of hand and get us both in trouble... though I sensed that I was going to be in trouble no matter what.

I pulled her away from the entrance and made her follow me by pretty much dragging her.  I pushed her up against the wall of the hallway and got right in her face.  "What do you think you were doing?  Just having fun?  Was it all a game you were playing?  You made me fall for you, you little bitch.  And for what?  For you to just dump me for someone like him?" I spat at her, glaring at the woman I loved.  I wanted to make her feel the pain that she made me feel.  I was not going to stand for this.  I wanted her and I would get her any way that I could have her.

He had both his hands on my arms and I was smashed against the wall.  I felt like I could not move... this was not cool.  "Dorian, you're drunk.  Go back to Slytherin dorm," I said, hoping that I would not have to do anything major.  I needed to get him to just go back to his dorm.  I did not want to have to deal with him.  I wanted now more than ever to be in Xander's strong arms.  "Ian, please... just go," I whispered, cringing when his grip tightened and his lips went to my neck.

I pulled away from her and brought her to an even more secluded area.  Someplace I knew I would make her feel insecure.  She hated dark, close places.  I would use that to my advantage now so I could make her see what I wanted her to see.  I had it in my head that the reason she chose him over me was due to the fact that she probably ended up putting out for him... well, I was tired of being pushed the side.  I slammed her against the wall and started kissing her.  I was larger than she, so this was easy to make her mine.  And I would do just that.  I would make her feel pain the way she made me hurt.  I loved her, I hated hurting her, but I was dark... revenge ran through my blood.  I would make sure she knew what she was just tossing away for the trash that was Black.

I gasped when he threw me up against the wall again.  I tried to get away from him but when we moved, my fears crept in and I was at a loss of what to do.  Everything was closing in around me... And Dorian was overwhelming and I could not even push him away.  "Dorian, no... please, stop," I said, hating how small my voice sounded.  He pushed my face against the stone wall, making me cry out slightly.  I felt a trickle of blood come down my cheek.  My breathing was starting to come faster and faster out of fear and the fact that i could not move.  I was going to start hyperventilating and I knew what Dorian was going to do... and there was nothing I could do about it.  He slipped the sweatpants that I had stolen from Xander off of me along with my panties as his hands went up my shirt.  I tried to fight him, I really did... but I was such a tiny little thing.  All I could do was close my eyes while tears escaped.  I could not do anything and when he was finished, he smacked my and let me fall to the floor.  I had my hand on my cheek, trying to catch my breathing because I was shaking and panicking.

I had not listened to her.  I was so angry with her and I was so drunk.  I was done with her... I got what I wanted.  What I waited for for what seemed like so long... I even laughed when I saww her crumple to the floor.  "You're nothing, Lyla.  You are utterly pitiful," I said, kicking her and walking away.  I was done... I had only seen red and what was done was done.  He could have my sloppy seconds.

I sat there for a moment after he walked away from me.  I had pulled my pants back on and I sat there, wrapping my arms around my knees that I had pulled up to my chest.  I wanted to calm down before I went to sneak off to where Xander was probably getting extremely worried about me by now.  Once my breathing was under control, I stood up realizing how shaky I still was.  I did not hear anything or anyone so I went to the passageway by the Whomping Willow.  I waved my wand and was able to manipulate something to press the notch on the trunk.  I wiped at my cheeks and could only imagine how I looked.  I was not sure if I could tell Xander the truth of what happened.  I just wanted his arms around me.  I needed his arms around me.  I finally made it to the Shrieking Shack and got outside of it where I saw him pacing in the moonlight.  I wrapped my arms around my chest as I walked up to him.  "Xander," I said quietly, my voice sounding so small and scared.  I wanted to just collapse in his arms and cry.

I heard Lyla come in and she had dried blood on her face. I rushed over to her, " what happened baby?" I asked her walking towards her slowly. She looked as if she may collapse. I went to hug her and wrapping my arms around her, sye felt like she melted. "what happened?"

<<btw, I love his pic! >>

All I needed was his warm embrace.  I wrapped my arms around him and managed to say, "You can kill him," before I started sobbing.  Everyone told me he was bad news and I just did not listen.  I would have never thought that he would have done that... but then again, I guess I never really knew him.  I calmed myself down and I pulled away enough to look Xander in his beautiful blue eyes.  I knew I was safe and that nothing would hurt me... not with him here with me.  "It was Malfoy," I said, unable to call him by his name like I normally did but wanting to call him worse at the same time.  "He was clearly drunk... and he was pissed off.  And I couldn't move -- couldn't breathe.  That bastard got me in as enclosed a place as possible and I got so freaked out... I couldn't do anything.  I froze..."  I buried my face into Xander's chest, feeling so humiliated and angry and hurt and weak.

I let her finish telling me," oh baby girl..." I whispered as I held her head against my chest. I would kill him. I will kill him for hurting her. I felt my body tense up. I scooped her up and walked over to the couch and sat down with her on my lap. I had her on my torso than I ran my hands through her hair. " I will make him pay." I said surprising myself with how dark i sound. " i am so sorry you had to go through this"

The way he sounded made me lift my head from his shoulder and stare at him.  I swear if it had been under any other circumstance, it would have been so sexy.  Right now, it was a little scary... but I was grateful to have someone like Xander to protect me.  I snuggled against him again.  "I'm just so glad I have you right now, babe," I said softly.  I always kept everyone from dogging on Malfoy, kept defending him... but never again.  He deserved whatever hell he brought on himself.  I was quiet for a moment.  "I'm just so stupid... I was a complete moron.  I should have known that it would have ended up like this.  It's in his nature..." I said suddenly, getting angry more with myself than with Malfoy.  I should have known better; I should have listened to everyone.

I held her close as i was only thinking about destroying Malfoy. I couldn't believe he was going to do this to her because she didnt want to be with him. The little daddy's bitch is going to pay. I will make sure of it. " ly you're not stupid. You see the better in people. Even when its hard for them to see it. Its something i love about you. I am not about to let Malfoy take that away from you. Being a good person comes easily to you. I want you to be able to be comfortable. " i finished as i desperately wanted to have her stay with me. " i wont let you see it either. He's mad because you stayed with me and not him. " apparently she was nothing but property to him. That just made me tense up even more. " lets get you back to the tower..." i said as i needed help in what to do.

I was so grateful to have him by my side. I shook my head at him though. "I want to stay with you. Uncle Remus won't care," I said, not entirely sure about that. I really didn't care at the moment though. I was unsure if I wanted to be by myself. As much as I would hate telling people, I would maybe tell Stan. He could do a lot of damage since he's in the samehouse as Dorian.

<<by the way... Love the insult of him calling Dorian a daddy little bitch!>>

I nodded to her, " I know...we have to get you back to the tower. I will just run a few errands that's it and than I'll be back in the tower all right?" I asked her. " I have to make a few pit stops." I told her honestly was I going to pay Malfoy a visit oh yeah.