Without a soul my spirit's sleeping somewhere cold. TBD----Violence & SMUT

She was just as bad as my mother.  I took a swig of the potion and really had to resist from spitting it out of my mouth.  Disgusting.  I made sure that I could see Elena.  I saw that James and Professor Lupin were near her and they moved out of the way for Lily to take care of her.  She looked horrible.  I just wanted to be holding her... but I was not going to cross Lily.  "Just let me know everything with her," I said, the concern in my voice extremely evident.

I shrugged at my husband.  "I'm fine... just a couple of scrapes.  I'm just worried about them," I said, looking at both of our children.  They looked horrible!  And I swear Dean was just as stubborn as his father... wanting to get up and check on everyone else before gettin ghimself checked out?  Definitely had Sirius written all over that.

I moved my head around trying to focus, " Sick...." I mumbled as I needed to turn over again. I guess I had lost a lot more blood than I had first thought. I looked and saw my uncles and my aunt, I rotated my head and saw my parents in the background I started to cry. I couldn't hold it in. IT was because of them I am here now. I was bleeding and dizzy as aunt lily started to work on me.

I looked at my auntie and did as I was told.  "Just cut it... I don't think I can move my shoulder.  And if I pull my arm away from my abdomen, well, I'm pretty sure it will be bleeding a lot worse than what it is," I said quietly, glad that I did sit back down.  I was woozy and that told me that I lost blood.  And like a lot of it.  I would not want this shirt again anyways so why try to save it?  I felt my lids starting to get a little droopy adn I did not want to pass out again.  But I wasn't sure if I would be able to fight it.  "Auntie Chlo... how badly do I need to focus on keeping my eyes open?" I asked, letting them close a little bit while I asked the question.  I was not sure if I could focus.

I walked over to them as they were keeping lenni talking. I knelt down beside her to hear her mumble. I grabbed a nearby jug for her just in case. " Lenni, sweetie you've lost a lot of blood we need you to sit back up onto the couch okay....I need to get a look at your wounds to clean you up." I explained. Turning to James and Remus, " Can one of you get orange juice? " I asked them, she needed some vitamins. Get her colour back. " she has lost a lot of blood. That's why she's dizzy. She has some broken bones. Brusing and she'll need stitches over her eyebrow and possibly the remaining wounds. They were bad gashes and I was having a hard time working on her. She was my neice, I just needed to focus on getting the bleeding to stop then we can worry about the bones then the bruising.

I looked to Dean quickly grabbing my light, " Dean, open your eyes for me." I instructed. I saw his pupils not move. Great. " HE'll need to be woken up every two hours..." I said to the room making sure I was heard by everyone. " Em!" I said loudly, " I will need your help cutting his shirt off of him okay?" I instructed. " I will cut it and then I need you to add pressure. " I told her, we need it to stop now, " Dean will also need some orange juice. "

I nodded and left James to attend to his goddaughter while I went to get a glass of juice for my godson.  I brought it back as Ember went to help get his shirt off of him.  I looked over to Lenni and saw that she looked horrible.  I stopped questioning why Death Eaters do the things they do... but I just did not understand the point in this.

I rushed over when I heard Chloe call my name.  I nodded, knowing that I would follow what ever instructions Chloe would give me.  When she got his shirt off of him, I held pressure onto his wound.  I looked into my son's face and he had a dazed expression.  His eyes were in that weird state where they were partially closed but his mind was not completely with us.

I worked on addressing his wound when I looked up and noticed his expression, " Em, he needs to drink the orange juice, keep him talking. " I told her. He needs to stay here. " Just talk." I said as I was stopping the bleeding rom his wound in the abdomen after I made sure nothing of great importance was hit. " This is going to hurt....feel free to squeeze a hand.." I said to Dean. He needs to stay awake, " His body is in overdrive. Have him talk...make it make sense."

I saw Ember take his hand and I looked at him and tried to make him focus.  "Dean... you need to drink this, okay?" I said in my soothing voice that seemed to always calm everyone down.  "I'll help you... just hold onto your mum's hand and let me help you drink it."  I lifted the cup to his mouth as he nodded at me.  He only drank a little bit but would not take more.  I sighed.  "Dean, you gotta stay with me.  Talk to me."  I tapped his cheek a little bit to make him focus on me a little bit better.

I sipped a little bit, but I could barely swallow.  When Uncle Remus slapped my face a little bit I scowled at him.  "Worry too much," I muttered, barely able to form the words.  Whatever Auntie Chloe was doing I was not expecting it.  I squeezed my mum's hand with my good one and clenched my jaw.  I was not going to cry out... after the beating I went through to save Lenni?  No.  "Lenni... okay?" I asked through my gritted teeth.  I needed to know how she was doing.

Lily M. Evans Potter wrote:I walked over to them as they were keeping lenni talking. I knelt down beside her to hear her mumble. I grabbed a nearby jug for her just in case. " Lenni, sweetie you've lost a lot of blood we need you to sit back up onto the couch okay....I need to get a look at your wounds to clean you up." I explained. Turning to James and Remus, " Can one of you get orange juice? " I asked them, she needed some vitamins. Get her colour back. " she has lost a lot of blood. That's why she's dizzy. She has some broken bones. Brusing and she'll need stitches over her eyebrow and possibly the remaining wounds. They were bad gashes and I was having a hard time working on her. She was my neice, I just needed to focus on getting the bleeding to stop then we can worry about the bones then the bruising.

I had gotten up and got the orange juice that Lily requested at the same time Remus grabbed some for Dean.  I knelt down by my niece and held the cup.  "Lenni... stay with me.  If you drink this for us then I'll bake you a batch of my excellent cookies that you just loved," I said, trying to bribe her and to take her mind off of what Lily was going to be doing.

" I know it hurts kiddo....Bare with me I'm almost done....then we have to work on your shoulder. " That was the one where we will need Remus and Sirius to hold him down. I bandaged up his abdomen, " Alright kiddo, this one is going to hurt....a lot." I prepared him. " We have to put his shoulder back in place. I had everyone grab a spot on Dean, I nodded to them I couldn't tell Dean when it was coming otherwise he would lock on us. I picked his arm up and pulled it to realign it. " All done.." I said as I was putting his arm in a sling. Wiping my forehead off, " You're almost all set then I get you to drink all the bad tasting stuff..." I told him.

I turned my head slightly to my uncle, smiled sort of...opening my mouth as it was becoming swollen it started to hurt. Cringing as I opened it, " hurts..."

"I know, sweetie," I said, trying to help her as much as I could.  I hated seeing her like this... I heard Dean -- probably as much as he hated it -- yell out when I heard the faint pop of his shoulder.  I could not help but wince for him.  I focused on my niece -- she needed me right now and I needed to pay one hundred percent attention to making sure we were albe to get her better.