Family is not an important thing. It is everything -- Summer 1999

I smiled to him, " thanks honey" I was glad he was here. " you know I am so glad I have you." I said as I clapped my hands together.

I took a deep breath and let it out slowly.  "So... I think we should tell Harry like tonight," I said.  More or less I wanted to make sure Harry knew before I went to the guys to freak out a little bit.  But I did not want to freak out until at leats our son knew he was going to be an extreme big brother.  I would definitely point him in Moony's direction if he had issues about it since Remus had two younger half sisters about this ar apart.  We really were an odd group...

I nodded, " I think we should tell Harry tonight as well." I agreed, it would be better. I knew the look in his eyes. He wanted to freak out and I wanted to do the same. Call, Em and Chloe over here. He had to know I was going to do it. " It would work to tell him as opposed to trying to see how we should tell him.." I repeated. Shaking my head, " Sorry.." I said quietly. I was so nervous.

I nodded, thinking it was a good idea just to get Harry in here and just to tell him. "Like ripping off a band-aid... may as well make it quick, right?" I said, laughing nervously. I wanted to go run screaming and to go to the guys and them tell me it was fine. But I knew Moony and Padfoot... they would drive me insane and tease me so much for going into fatherhood again. I would just tell them this is what my parents did. That was what I kept repeating to myself anyways.

I nodded agreeing with him. " Yes...like ripping off a band-aid..." I repeated. Something told me it wouldn't be like that at all. One could only hope I suppose. The new baby would be welcome of course. I just didn't want to be a thirty eight year old new mother again. Of now four children. I could handle this right? We can handle this. No need to be nervous and yet it felt like we had to tell the parents.

I wanted to tell Lily how worried I was about raising another child.  I was not there for any of the other three... could I be a good dad?  I smiled nervously at my wife.  "Alright... let's tell Harry.  Then we'll get the twins together... I doubt he would enjoy us sitting all three of them together at once," I said, thinking of our eldest.

I nodded as I had to agree with James about that. " I think it would be best to tell Harry first sort of work it by age. " I smiled as I was not sure how our eldest was going to take us having another baby. Was I worried about having another child, yes I was because every child we have had has had a rough start to life and it wasn't fair to them.

I nodded.  "Merlin... let's hope with this one we can get it right, hmm?" I said, not meaning to speak my musings out loud.  But Lily had to be thinking the same thing.  I did not see any of our children grow up -- was I going to be a good dad after everything that happened in the past?  I was nothing like I was when we had Harry.  I had not even known that Lily gave birth to the twins... these thoughts scared me greatly.