It was killin' me to see the strongest man I ever knew, wasting away to nothing...TBD

I had to come to terms with dad being in the hospital. He had to wake up, we had only just got him back. It seemed unfair to have this done to him after everyone knows of his innocence. I was getting ready to go to the hospital to see him. I looked to my guitar case and bit my lip. " Can't hurt.." I said looking to myself in the mirror. I had my black tie up boots, my shorts and an oversized shirt, throwing my hair into a ponytail. I took my guitar and left the room, I had been doing a lot of my opening up in songs. I had managed to write a few for dad. It may help me sing them to him. I was doing it for both of us. If there was a hope he would hear me or something. Maybe, maybe not. I felt bad for my brother that dad wasn't able to be at his wedding. I just hoped when mine and George's came along he would be there to walk me down the aisle.

I walked down the stairs and said goodbye to my mum and Dean, we all seemed to take shifts although, mine seemed to be pushed back. It just hurt me to see him with all of those tubes in him and needles. I needed my dad to be at my wedding. I needed him, We needed him. I flooed to St. Mungo's. I walked up to the receptionist who nodded at me as I said my dad's name. She told me not much to report. I gave her a polite nod as she went back to her work. I hoped I was here by myself. I got to his room and opened the door slowly, as for some reason I expected him to be awake. I closed the door as this was none of their business to why I am here. I turned back, " Hey daddy..." I said quietly. He looked so fragile, and hearing the beeping of his heart made me somewhat relax knowing that he wasn't here...but he wasn't gone either.

I pulled the chair to the farthest away from the door close to him. " I have been playing like you wanted me too. " I said as I laughed remembering him after hearing me so many times. I have gotten used to singing around people. George has told me that I need to do it more. I opened my guitar case and pulled it out as it was already in tune and ready to go. " I wrote a few songs for you." I said as strummed lightly.

Wind blowing on my face
Sidewalk flying beneath my bike
A five year old's first taste
Of what freedom's really like

He was running right beside me
His hand holding on the seat
I took a deep breath and hollered
As I headed for the street

You can let go now, daddy, you can let go
Oh, I think, I'm ready to do this on my own
It's still a little bit scary but I want you to know
I'll be okay now, daddy, you can let go

I was standing at the altar
Between the two loves of my life
To one, I've been a daughter
To one, I soon would be a wife

When the preacher asked
"Who gives this woman?"
Daddy's eyes filled up with tears
He kept holding tightly to my arm
'Til I whispered in his ear

You can let go now, daddy, you can let go
Oh, I think, I'm ready to do this on my own
It's still feels a little bit scary but I want you to know
I'll be okay now, daddy, you can let go

It was killing me to see the strongest man I ever knew
Wasting away to nothing in that hospital room
You know he's only hanging on for you

That's what the night nurse said
My voice and heart were breaking
As I crawled up in his bed and said

You can let go now, daddy, you can let go
Your little girl is ready to do this on my own
It's gonna be a little bit scary but I want you to know
I'll be okay now, daddy, you can let go, you can let go

I looked back up at him, I needed to write that song. It had been hanging over my head for a while. It just seemed hard to put it into words. " George and I are picking all of the plans. I have my dress..." I said well I felt tears welling in my eyes. " I want you to be there.....to see me in it. To walk me down the aisle. I need you....We need you. Dean and Addison are married now... " I said wiping my eyes, looking down to my guitar. " They had a beautiful wedding....we have tons of pictures to show you when you wake up. " I explained like he was just having a nap.

I had to wipe away my tears as the beeps on his monitor stayed strong. " I am glad to know you're still here dad....I just wish you could show me." I said to him as if he was going to say oh hi Elena! I rolled my eyes at my stupidity. Getting angry at myself, " I just want you to be able to walk me down the aisle dad.." I said as fresh tears rolled down my cheeks.

I couldn't sit still. I felt like I needed to go do something. I opened up his window to look outside, " It's a beautiful day out." I said just talking to him. I know that he wouldn't answer me but I wanted to know he was here...still here. Always will be. I looked back to him and grinning, " Let's get some colour in here." I said waving my wand and making his room Gryffindor colours, " I don't think your nurses will mind. " I said looking around as I managed to have everything the way it needed to look. Walking back over to him I sat down on the chair. I bit my lip, " Dad, I just want you to know, Dean loves you....even though you guys have a tough relationship....he does love you. I know for a fact he feels like it is his fault that you're in here. Even though he knew you would rather be here then him. " I said as I was crying fresh tears.

I ran a hand through my hair, " Their wedding was beautiful.." I said as I looked at the photos surrounding his bed. " You have been sleeping for what seems like forever. We need you dad...we all need you. I didn't really expect how much until you were gone again. " I slammed my hands on the table. " We only just you back!" I sobbed, I felt like I needed to do this.

Looking up to his monitors as I had hoped something would change while I was watching. I mean, I doubt it but it could work I suppose. Running a hand through my hair looking to my dad, " Mum's not taking care of herself much.....Dean's being his usual brooding self. Saying he's fine when we all know it's a load of poop. " I explained, " I hold the record though....I haven't really been planning much of my own wedding. well, we plan then I just....." My voice got caught in my throat. " I just know that I had asked uncle James to walk me down the aisle because.....you're still sleeping."