I don't know what I would do without you...TBD

I had given mum a heads up where I was going. I felt bad for putting mum in the middle of mine and Mere's fight. She didn't have to be in the middle. Shaking my head, I was not going to worry about that today. I had gotten ready and was heading over to see my uncle. I had gotten there quite quickly as I gave a knock and walked in. We had been told do this over and over. I still like to give heads up. I didn't want to walk in on anything. "Hello?"

I heard Ally calling out as I was stepping out of the shower.  I had just gotten up not that long ago -- my sleeping schedule was so different from anyone else's in this house due to working over nights.  One would think that I would not be able to keep doing it at my age, but I enjoyed it.  "Be out in a minute," I called out to her, drying off quickly and pulling on boxers and jeans.  I walked out to the living room as I was pulling a shirt over my head.  "Hey Ally-Cat," I said, using the nickname I had given her when she was just a baby.  She would never be too old for that.  "Everything okay?" I asked her gently.

I went into the living room while Uncle Dean got dressed. I sat down on the couch as I looked over and he came in. " Hi" I said with a smile. " Everything's ...all right. " I said as I didn't want to dig into detail with my sister. I knew he would eventually get me to say it. So I would wait until that point to bring it up. " I just had a favour to ask....." I said as I let him get comfortable.

I sat down and looked at her, knowing that look.  But I let it pass for the moment.  "A favor?" I asked, giving her a skeptical look playfully.  "I don't know... your favors tend to be followed with 'don't tell mum' or some sort of trouble involved."  Despite the hardship right now, I wanted to try to put a smile on my niece's face.

I gave a short laugh, " I know....this time it actually doesn't..." I told him. Receiving the same look, " Really they don't." I promised, " It's about the wedding..." I said slowly. I was still not so sure on how I was handling this. A lot more respectful than what Meredith was doing. I took a deep breath, as I continued on. " With Dad......" I paused as I felt the tears welling in my eyes. " Anyway, I was hoping you would be the one to give me away?" I asked him as I waited eagerly for his response. With Dad gone he was the best option for me, he was there for me all the time with Dad. Without Dad, I figured would be the same response.

I was stunned by what she was asking me.  Alysha meant the world to me; she was practically a second daughter to me.  I had helped the best I could with everything when Will died and even when he was still around.  We helped raise each other's kids really.  I could see the mixed emotions that Ally was feeling.  Excitement for planning her wedding, mixed with sadness of not having her own father there to walk her down the aisle.  I smiled at her.  "I would love to do that for you," I replied.

I grinned as he gave me his answer. "Really?...thank you so much." I said as I through my arms around my uncle. As much as I wish dad was here, I am glad I have uncle Dean here. " it means a lot.." I pointed out to him. It was Meredith's fault that he wasn't around anymore and I couldn't forgive her. I would barely call her my sister. The only connection alive that we have is my mother. She made it clear she doesn't trust or like her. I ran a hand through my hair, " its a red and white color theme."

I hugged her and gave her a kiss on the cheek.  "Of course," I told her when she had asked if I really meant it.  I did understand completely that it meant a lot to her... I just hoped I would make Will proud.  That was supposed to be his place.  I smiled and nodded.  "Why does that not surprise me?  How is planning going?"

I smiled as we hugged, " Thanks, " I said as I put my hair in a ponytail, and looking over to Uncle Dean. " It's getting there...sometimes though not so much..." I said honestly, knowing there is no point in me trying to hide that I am upset that my dad won't be there. " Red is a wonderful colour.." I said as I pointed out my reasoning for wanting red. " You trying to say there's some hidden reason why I would want red?" I asked with a grin. " Planning is going great....Jada and mum are a lot of help..so is Aunt Jule.." I said as the three women have been helping me. Then there was also Molly, Josh's grandma...than my grandma. We had tons of help which also meant a lot of input on how we should do things.

" I have never known so many women in our family to have so many different opinions about EVERYTHING..." I said as I rolled my eyes. Lately, I have had to play the referee. Which I don't like doing when it is mine and Josh's wedding. " Everyone is just putting a lot in....and well, not taking anything Josh and I are saying....we're feeling a little outnumbered. " I explained.

<< So... Will dies between engagement thread and wedding thread.  And after Remus adn Chloe are gone in 2018ish.  Addie dies Jan 2017... so this thread Dean and Jules are dating.  Or do we want it far enough in the future (Josh and Ally graduate June 2018) where Dean and Jules are engaged?  Or do we want it closer to 2018?  IDK when you were going to have all the drama commence.  OMG... if they lose all three of them in that closely... Remus, Chloe, Will... Lucy is going to flip out.  The entire Lupin clan is going to get so depressed!!! >>

I nodded, understanding.  I had just stood back with the wedding details when I married Addison.  I knew better than to get involved - Uncle James and Uncle Remus warned me about that.  I wished Dad could have warned me then.  At least with Juliet -- who I never would have thought could have stolen my heart -- Dad could be there this time around.  "You know, I can talk to all the ladies about letting you and Josh do the planning," I told her.  "I don't mind being the bad guy.  Then they all can hate me but still want to help the two of you without getting offended."

( Dean and Juliet are engaged sound good? They will lose all of them in that sort time frame. We need to do some happy threads for them as well...this is so sad! )

I laughed, " No, I appreciate it...I think I will be the bad guy....hopefully." I said to him as I grinned, " Helping me, is good...it's just we apparently don't know what we want." I explained to him. " Like, I want roses and lilies. I have been told they are to over used." I said as I sighed.

<< Sounds good!  The fact that Juliet and Dean kind of move fast can be part of the reason why Ryan is reluctant to accept her as making Dean happy, etc.  But yes, happy threads will be needed lol >>

I shook my head.  "If your Aunt Lucy is saying any of this, just point out that she had lilies in her wedding... though they were paired with tulips since those are her favorite flowers," I said, surprised that I could remember that.  I sighed and laughed.  "Okay, maybe don't tell her that I gave you that information... I don't know why I remembered that at all."  I looked at my little Ally-cat, almost not believing that she was grown up enough to be getting married.  "Don't let all the other women push you around.  Your mum, your aunts, Josh's nan and Jada... it's your guys' wedding, not anyone else's.  I can help get most of them off your back, though."

aw poor Juliet, she doesn't do anything wrong....we should eventually have a happy thread where ryan can accept her though.)))

" I won't let her forget it, weren't lilies what mum and dad had too?" I asked him. I know that mum loves lilies, " I won't spill your secret." I promised, " When you and Aunt Jules get married, have you guys got any planning down? Or is she becoming just as overwhelmed by everyone's help?" I asked. I wanted to know how she was handling it. She was with mum when they would be talking about mine and Josh's.

<< Oh, I know.  Ryan is a bit of an ass about the whole thing, though he doesn't really think he is.  I do agree on that!  Maybe we have a thread of just the two of htem or something? Oh, like maybe she catches him on a bad day at school?  Since he's so much like Dean, he always pretends everything is just fine and dandy, but she could find him by himself somewhere having a moment?  Oh, and if this is happening probably 2019ish, the shower thread is Winter 2019 where he still doesn't like her, so in this thread I'm guessing that they have not set a date due to RJ's contempt? >>

I nodded, trying to remember.  "I believe so," I said.  Part of the reason why I remembered Lucy's so well was because she had a special place in my heart -- we were each others' first kiss after all.  I smiled at her.  "I appreciate that," I told her, though my smile faltered when she mentioned me and Jules planning our wedding.  "We haven't really gotten much done... between helping you two and the fact that Ryan is still having issues, we don't even have a date set yet.  We're tossing ideas back adn forth -- with Sedona's help, she really couldn't be more excited about this."  I sighed and ran a hand through my hair.  "I'm sure she'll get overwhelmed, though.  I would bet a good amount that the fact that I've been through this before and actually know what I'm doing will be completely overlooked by everyone."  I chuckled slightly at that thought.

I smiled, " I'm sorry....I have felt like we have been a burden on everyone because our planning is being overlooked. " I said, " I'm glad Sedona is helping....Ryan will help soon enough." I said as I had figured where he was coming from. " I doubt that Aunt Jules hasn't come up with everything already and hope you love all of the ideas. Just as much as I hope Josh likes mine.." I said honestly as I stood up and helping myself to a glass of water. " I'm glad it hasn't stopped you though...he should come around knowing how happy she makes you..." I said loudly, " I'll get you one too!" I said as I filled up two glasses.

Walking back into the room I handed uncle Dean his water as I sat back down. Nodding, " It'll be overlooked." I laughed as I agreed with him. " I got my dress, it had made it a lot more real for that..." I explained. " How did you go through it and than know that she's the one you want to be with?" I asked.