You're beautiful and tragic and that's good enough for me -- March 1999

Things had been interesting with Liam; it was like he wanted something, but did not at the same time.  It was hard to figure him out.  We were supposedly supposed to have a date, but it was a quiet night out.  He was very distant with me.  "Liam?" I said for what seemed to be the hundredth time.  "Is everything okay?"

I was pulled out of my thoughts by Parvati's voice.  I sighed and tried to look apologetic.  March was a rough month; it was the month in which I lost my twin brother.  "I'm sorry," I said to her.  "Perhaps it is just best if I take you home.  I am not myself."

I smiled at him a bit, squeezing his hand gently.  At least we had a bit of physical contact.  "No, it's alright," I said to him gently.  "Would it help if you talked about whatever it is that's bothering you?"  I just wanted to know so much more about Liam than he was clearly able to tell me.

I sighed and looked at Parvati.  "It's just a hard month," I said slowly.  I wanted a serious relationship; I really was starting to feel strongly about Parvati -- like Mum thought would happen.  But how could I open up to her about things that I did not like talking to anyone about?

I looked at him with a mixture of sadness and understanding. "Liam," I said gently, "what is it? You can tell me... you know I won't tell anyone if it's a big secret..." I just wanted him to open up to me.

I had to be able to talk to her if I wanted any sort of future with her. I took a deep breath. "I had a brother," I replied quietly, "and this was when I lost him was around this time of year." I was not entirely sure what sort of questions that would bring, but I did not want to go into how I lost him. I was not ready to admit anything of the sort -- I barely admitted it to myself still these many years later.