What do you do when you lose your hero?--tbd

I was cleaning up the house as I felt something was up. I couldn't sit still. Poor James had to think I was losing my mind. I couldn't stop, " something isn't right...i don't know how I can explain it...just something is off." I said running a hand through my hair as i looked at my husband. " Can we..." I was cut off by our owl was flying at the window. I walked over and opened the window up letting him in. Taking the note from him I could barely finish reading it as my eyes became cloudy. I sat down in the chair, looking to the ground. I didnt know what to do.

I was reading the prophet while lily was bustling about. I knew not to get in her way when she was like this. I looked up from the paper when she trailed off. I knew that look. I set the paper down and went over to her. "what is it?" I asked her, kneeling down next to her chair.

My dad...my dad. " We..." The tears falling from my eyes. " We need to get to the hospital..." I let out a breath. My dad is in the hospital, they don't give him to long. " We need to get to the muggle hospital...my dad is....." I said to my husband who was leaning down beside me. I clutched his hand as I felt like an empty shell. " what do we do?"

I nodded at her, understanding fully now what was going on. I stood up and quickly grabbed our jackets instead of cloaks. I pulled lily to her feet. "come on," I said gently, helping her into her jacket. I knew she couldn't do this on her own.

I put on my jacket with James' help. I hung onto him as if I could no longer use my own strength to take me. My dad is in the hospital, it just didnt seem like it was real. I didn't know how to feel. I couldn't feel. This brought me to the horrible realization that I could lose him. We locked up the house, heading there all I could think about was how much pain he had to be in. Which was not the best idea for me who couldn't stop shaking. I felt myself leaning more and more on James as we got closer to the hospital. We got to the doors as I felt my legs lock. I couldn't move, " Help me.." I whispered.

I knew exactly how she felt; it was not that long ago that I lost my own father.  I held onto her, glad to be her support.  "You can do this," I said to her softly.  I rubbed the small of her back as I gently pushed her forward through the door.

I took his hand tightly as we entered the hospital. I needed to find my dad, " We need to get to his room..." I said quietly as I was managing to hold the tears in as I didn't want to let go of James' hand at all in fear of me collapsing. I took a deep breath, as I was about to ask for my dad I saw my mother coming to meet us. She looked just as I felt. Fresh tears were clouding my eyes, " Mum..." I said as I felt like I was a sad little girl again who needed her dad. " How is he holding up?" I asked her as she attempted to smile at me. She shook her head.
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I looked to my youngest daughter as I didn't know what to say to her. " He's upstairs, your sister and Vernon are on there way.." I informed her as I took her in a hug. " Lily Flower, he's asking for you and James..." I said in her ear as I let go of her. " I need some fresh air sweetie....I will wait for your sister and Vernon outside. You can go and see him....he's on the fourth floor...4E" I let her know as I pulled James into a hug. Looking to him, " I am so glad you're here." I said as I clapped his hands and I turned to leave and wait for our daughter outside.

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I let the tears fall from my eyes as I looked on as she gave James a hug and said something to you. Saying she was going outside was never really a good sign. " He's asking for us...." I told him as I walked over to the elevator. Walking in I hit the fourth floor button as I felt myself shaking as I didn't want to see him attached to all of those wires. We got to his room as I pushed it open and I felt my heart break. He was connected to so many things I didn't know how to react. I started deep breathing, tears falling freely I took a step into the room with James right beside me. " Hi dad..." I said as I walked to his side. Making sure I didn't hit any of the wires or anything. " They treating you right?" I asked him. He looked over to me and smiled, to which I broke. I started sobbing and couldn't control myself.

I gave Mrs. Evans a tight hug, the only reason I would let go of Lily at the moment was to spread some of my strength to her mother.  I followed Lily up to 4E and I hated to see how much it hurt Lily to see her dad like this -- it flashed me back to how my own father looked.  I swallowed and kept a hand on Lily's shoulder and returned Mr. evans' smile.  I still found it difficult to think that he was asking for both of us and not just his eldest daughter.

I felt my knees buckle as I just wasn't sure on how I was still moving. I borrowed strength from James as I knew it had to be hard for him. Seeing as we were in this situation ot to long ago. I took a deep breath and tried to make sure I didn't continue to make a fool out of myself. Neither James or my dad seemed to mind me sobbing. I took a few breaths, trying to gain composure. I knew Petunia was going to be here soon and she better not start anything for I feared the way I would act. Looking to my dad as I held tightly to his hand, " You have to get better.." I said quietly. I didn't know what to do without him. I don't like how close it really was to losing him.

I squeezed Lily's shoulders on which I put my hands.  I figured that my silence would be best in this situation.  I knew, however, that if Petunia or Vernon said or did anything, I would step up and defend Lily.  There was no way I would let them get away with causing a scene during a time like this.

My dad squeezed my hands and gave me a small smile. " Stop it.." I said as more tears rolled down my cheeks. I wanted to be strong for him to not have him just worry about me falling apart or something. I don't know if I could do that. I was worried for when Petunia and Vernon would show up however. I am in no mood to be messed with. I wouldn't however, have a fight in front of dad. I wouldn't let her have the satisfaction.