Here goes everything. TBD

So, Woke up early that morning wanting to go to Hog's head not sure how I will do it. But I knew I was going to show up. Did I know what I was going to say, hell no. I hoped it would come to me. I didn't want to lose her. But was i prepared to do anything for her. Yes, I just didn't know how it would turn out.

I was glad when I woke the next morning, that my sister weren't awake yet. I needed some time alone to get dressed for Hogsmeade. I decided on a pair of jeans that Ted once told me were his favourite, as well as a long sleeve shirt and my peacoat like jacket. I headed out of my room and to the common room where I could see my sisters with their friends. Narcissa was trying to wave me over, but I just kept going, making it seem like I didn't even notice them there. I was to meet Sirius and the gang at the front doors.

I sighed, " Here goes..." I mumbled to Amos and Rosalie who both nodded at me as Amos gave me a nod. I went to meet the group that was headed to Hog's head. I sighed as I pressed my coat around me as some kids ran up ahead of me. I know this was going to be difficult

I saw Sirius and the others and I was starting to feel awkward. I wasn't close to any of his friends, although it seemed like they accepted me, for Sirius' sake anyways. I took a deep breathe and headed over to them. "Morning everyone." By some of the looks I was getting, I knew they didn't know I would be hanging out with them today, and maybe I wouldn't, if Ted showed up. I didn't think he would though. He just didn't seem like he wanted me anymore. I guess my sisters really got to him. I looked up at Sirius and gave him, what I hopped to be, a happy smile, though I was feeling far from happy.

So, I took a deep breath and met the group headed to Hogsmeade, I sighed as i knew what was waiting as Amos and Rose weren't coming, so Iwas by myself with girls following me. Great. I sighed running a hand through my hair. this was going to be difficult.

I saw Ted not to far away, girls surrounding him. I really debated with myself on if I should call out to him to come to me, or wait for him to come himself. I wanted to be near him, but I was just so worried that he wouldn't want to be near me, not now, not after everything we've been through because of my sisters. But, he came, right? He was here. That must mean that he cares some what, right? He wouldn't be here if he didn't want to talk.

I sighed as the group of girls didn't want to take the hint. " I'm not really in the mood for any of this. Please stop." I told them as McGonagall took attendance and then we would be off to my impending doom.

Once Mcgonagall seemed to have everything in order with the attendance, we all set off into Hogsmeade, able to do whatever we wanted. I told Sirius that I was going to hang back a bit away from him and the others in hope of Ted finally seeing me.

This felt like the first time I had ever really got to lay eyes on him. Watching him from afar as he made his friends. He was just so open, where I felt like hanging back more. I had the same feelings then, as I do now. I wanted to be his and only his and every day I hoped he would look at me and it would just pop into his head that he wanted me too.

Sirius kind of woke me from my past by telling me that if I needed him, that he would be there. I nodded towards him and watched him walk away. I knew I would try my hardest to not bother him though. I didn't want to lay my failures on my younger cousins shoulders. I needed to be myself, but I knew I needed Sirius and I knew he'd always be there for me.

I stuffed my hands into my jacket pockets and hung back, walking slow, as others went past me. I could see Ted up ahead, girls hanging around him still. I could see them all talking to him at once, probably wanting him to take them somewhere in Hogsmeade. I couldn't believe this. Why was I just standing here watching this? Shouldn't I be up there fighting for him? Sighing, I knew the answer to that. I wanted him to be the bigger person and realize where he went wrong. But, isn't it time that I became the bigger person?

Sighing these girls are just relentless. " Please just let me be..." I asked them and that just seemed to make them awe at me. Ugh this is so frustrating. I looked around and saw the Marauders walking as a group with their girlfriends and sighing. This is getting ridiculous.

I could feel myself moving. It felt like I was quickening my speed. I could see the back of Ted coming closer to me. Did he stop moving? No, I could see him still walking, and those damn girls still gawking over him. Closer and closer he got. I found myself squeeze through the circle of girls around him now all I had to do was reach out and I could touch Ted. As if on its own accord, my arm lifted, my hand slipped between Ted's arm and body, my fingers closed around his jacket and my body seemed to just move closer to his. My steps coordinated with his instantly. When I felt like I had my body back, I looked up at Ted to see how he would take my sudden action.

i stopped I didn't know what to do other than saying " Hi....." I knew I needed to actually say something other than Hi. But that's all I could muster. I needed help. " Listen I'm sorry......but I couldn't be the reason..." I sputtered out hoping she knew where I was going with this.

The girls had walked away since Ted and I seemed to now be at a stand still and since I was now with him. I waited till they had gone like the rest of the others and Ted and I seemed to be the only ones around. I released him now and took a step away from him. I just felt like he didn't want me that near, especially when he said what he said. I stared at him for a while without saying anything.
"I can't believe you're starting with that again." Why couldn't he just understand how much I needed him.

I have started many fights between family members and I just didn't want to do that. I sighed, " I don't want to lose you....I love you too much." Her sisters tore me a new one but I never really wanted this to end. I care about her too much. " I love you....I just didn't know how to handle the situation. I knew I couldn't be without her. But I didn't want to ruin anything with her family either.

"Can't you tell that what they want doesn't matter to me? Don't you think that if it did, I wouldn't want to keep talking to you?" I slowly outstretched my hand. "Ted...you're all I ever wanted and more." I looked up at him, my eyes swimming in tears, but none falling. "I love you Ted."

Smiling taking her hands in mine, never wanting to let go. " I love you Andromeda." I said ignoring the group of girls that had still surrounded us. I gave a laugh as I brought her face to mine and our lips brushing slightly. " I'm glad we're not listening to your sisters." I didn't know why I listened to them in the first place.